Q-tan-chan

For far too long I feel I have lived my life as a lie, a world that is not my own, a place that is not mine to fill.  For nearly all my life I've become a cold, heartless individual who can react to emotions and feels but cannot be emotional of feel. It has been destructive, and for the first time in a decade I have felt something real. I've have gotten so used to simply reacting to emotions acting the part I've truly forgotten what it means to feel.  This feeling that I have felt was a horrible one, one I ignored the most, the feeling of loving one self.  Simply put, I don't, I have become a person in this world who says and does things not

It is the 150th anniversary of the ugliest Chapter in American History, that of the American Civil War.  A war that cannot be talked about without one of its catalysts, Slavery. Slavery however was just one of many, and the idea that it was the only or the Principle motive behind the war is ignorant of history.  You would have to prescribe that Everyone one in the Confederate States owned slaves.  Though all in the south benefited from slavery so did all in the north who created the clothes spun from the cotton picked from a slave.  Even after the Civil War, the Slaves were free but had to endure another one hundred years of segregation and

Life getting in the way of my art. 2010 has been a incredible and fantastic year....  For everything but my life.   I got Married to the woman I love.  Went to Australia and fell in love with it!  I thought it would be a once in a life time trip, but I know that cannot be...  I will return.  I've made advancements in my work as a Police Officer.  Had some big cases go my way, and I honestly made a difference for the better in many peoples lives. Yet, my art has been pushed to the side because of all of these things.   I used to be able to finish at least 50 pieces, and hundreds of sketches.   Now I can barely manage 50 sketches.... I have o